How do I love you? I’ll try to say
instead of keeping all of these emotions at bay,
afraid that if I give into my need, it will grow,
afraid of holding onto you for fear I won’t let go.
How do I act with you? I’ll try to tell.
I keep some distance. I’ve learned detachment well
going through the motions of our friendship every day,
almost never having to give myself away
to you.
You seem so even-keeled, it’s hard to show
all the hills and valleys through which my feelings flow,
but I don’t want to go on always in control.
I need to lose myself a little to feel more whole.
CHORUS A:
I love you wholeheartedly
but sometimes it’s hard to see.
I’m trying to balance on my own
so I know I could handle life alone.
I run through our future together in my mind
till we’re both old with no more time to find
ways to make up for the past that’s gone away.
I need to love you now. There’s no time like today.
Rather than sequestering these sentiments inside,
I’ll try to open up to you. I’ll try to confide
the thought of losing us someday hurts so much
sometimes I just can’t let myself be touched by your touch.
If you were to die today I’d feel regret.
Thank goodness that our lives aren’t over yet.
I can still give you my full honesty
and tell you how much you mean to me.
CHORUS B:
I want to love you fearlessly,
but sometimes it’s hard for me.
I’m trying to balance on my own
so I know I could handle mortality alone.
I run through our future together in my mind
till we’re both old with no more time to find
ways to make up for the past that’s gone away.
I need to love you now. There’s no time like today.
I want to love you with all my heart
to fill the days with memories when we’re apart.
I hope you understand I am doing my best.
Sometimes I simply need you to do the rest.
CHORUS A and B: REPEAT